New Divide - Linkin Park https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ysSxxIqKNN0 Lyrics: I remembered black skies The lightning all around me I remembered each flash As time began to blur Like a startling sign That fate had finally found me And your voice was all I heard That I get what I deserve So give me reason To prove me wrong To wash this memory clean Let the floods cross The distance in your eyes Give me reason To fill this hole Connect this space between Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies Across this new divide There was nothing in sight But memories left abandoned There was nowhere to hide The ashes fell like snow And the ground caved in Between where we were standing And your voice was all I heard That I get what I deserve So give me reason To prove me wrong To wash this memory clean Let the floods cross The distance in your eyes Across this new divide In every loss in every lie In every truth that you deny And each regret and each goodbye Was a mistake too great to hide...

A moment in time is all we have !

Being hopeful is key to living and the most powerful thought to have,  giving up is the worst thing to happen in life. Being active is key to moving forward,  you become powerless when you stop taking actions.

When I first decided to become a Land Surveyor, among all the mental strength I needed to have to work in the field, work alongside mostly males, giving instructions to male juniors, the most challenging was being told that I should not be in this career because of my gender.  I remember vividly, studying in my Department of Surveying Science faculty library one afternoon, I was confronted by a Malay Senior who was doing his final year, he asked why did I choose this career, did I know that the National Mapping Agency would not be taking in female candidate for the job of District Surveyor, that a female would best be a cartographer but it is not a surveyor role. This Malay senior was Annuar, he became a good friend after that conversation. I remember feeling a bit shaken to know the future awaiting me back home would be so bleak. But I told him I would be willing to work alongside male surveyors and going to the jungle. He laughed very hard and said the jungle of Malaysia be so to...

A very rare moment that our team appeared in local newspaper while we did our Master in Remote Sensing and GIS under Universiti Putra Malaysia with our Doctor Worldclass, Dr Rashid who challenged us to paritcipate in a world students poster competition for GIS and we won third place in the International Category.  The joke was that someone said perhaps there was only three entries and that was why we won third place but upon enquiry, there were hundreds of submission, even if a hundred over, that be so cool to us to win No 3 ! 

When I first started work in 1989, I knew I have so much to learn and I have little time to remember what were happening in everyday of the working days. So, a diary was a necessity and helpful reference.  Some years, I used notepads so that easier to tear them apart and turned into actions, and recently years, I used mini Ipad or Laptop to take notes using Google Doc or emailed back to myself. So, the usage of Diaries becomes another alternative to take notes quickly.   Here are my 30 years of diaries, some years I stopped using them but recently, I picked up again as there were needs to write quickly from meetings. There be a lot of memory to read through them but I would not be keeping them, probably will digitise those memorable pages before I recycle them.    Such emotional finds ! 

The final handing over to Prisilla with the "Fail Meja" (Work File) as we sorted through the piles of documents on 20 June 2020 after I left the office for another job for almost 6 months! Pris has been more than just an assistant to my former job as Senior Principal Assistant Director of Geospatial Development Management Section of the Lands and Surveys Department Sabah. She is a friend, sister, confidante, partner in crime, brainstorm buddy, dare-devils partner, counsellor, who can speak into my life as if she knows me all my life.   All the best, Pris ! I know you can do it !